March 25, 2012
I haven't posted because of two reasons: Work and Stress.
There has been no change in my weight... just my attitude. I am ashamed to say that the prettier it has been outside, the more lax I have been with my diet. It is like I am going through a "mourning" period where I just want to eat anything and everything I know I won't be able to after June. Ice Cream is not something I normally even want, but lately, Culver's Frozen Custard is something I'd spend $20 a scoop on. It isn't funny and I know it isn't an OK feeling.
I haven't been going to my normal old lady swim class regularly because of work schedules. I swim laps and go on my own to the pool to avoid others and to be able to "swim laps". I haven't been doing cardio in a week. Kendra and I are going to start the dance classes this next week and I'm sure that will be super embarrassing. I'm not as excited to start those.
Stress is another thing that seems to affect my diet more and more. The thought of time off for the surgery, quota and being able to concentrate on my diet while working really worries me. I have always put work in the number 2 category after family... diet was like #10. For diet to be #2 and work to be #3, it will be a huge lifestyle change. My company doesn't exactly support the idea of someone taking time for themselves. With that said, I haven't missed quota since I started, even with 2 maternity leaves, so I won't start now. I have a terrific team who I know will help in any way they can.
I can not wait for my two vacations coming up. Disney and L.A. should be amazing! They will be my pre-surgery celebrations!
My goal for this next week is to get my diet back in check and get to the gym 4 days instead of 3.
Thank you to all of you that give me that daily pep talk and support! xoxo.
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